Taking a break

Hey y'all.  It's me.  I don't usually go this long without blogging unless I have a reason, although I haven't really kept track.  Have I been gone for longer before?  Without a reason?  Who knows, I don't.  

Anyway, I've tried to come up with something funny and entertaining to write about, but my brain just won't cooperate because I've been fighting the sads lately and nothing funny or entertaining will come out, no matter how hard I try.

I can't write it out here because the reasons for the sads involve people that read this blog and I'm not that far down the rabbit hole that I don't care about them.  When I start calling people out, then you know it's really bad.  It's not really bad.  Not yet.  I'm trying with every ounce of me to keep it from getting really bad and that drains all my funny and entertaining.

So rather than be fake and pretend that things are good when they're not, I'm just going to take a break from blogging.  I'm still writing, because writing is my therapy, I'm just not putting it all out there.  When you put things out there, "get things off your chest", relationships tend to get destroyed in the process.  I know that because I've done it before, and I'm not quite there yet.

But I will say this:  There are other people who read this blog.  Maybe there are other people out there who fight the sads sometimes.  I say this to you:  Get help.  Find someone, anyone and dump that shit out.  Google 'crisis help' or anything with the word 'hotline' in it and make that call.  Keeping things in, putting on a happy face when all you want to do is cry, is very very very VERY unhealthy.  Don't fucking do it.  Pretending to be someone you're not is the first step down the rabbit hole and it's hard as fuck to climb back out.  So don't even take that first step.

I'm getting help.  If you're fighting the sads, you get help too, ok?  The sads won't take us down, we're not going to let it.  Ok?  Let's shake on it.

I'll be back soon, hopefully with something really funny and entertaining.