fuck.
shitdammit fuck cry why scream cry wail pound fist knees cry cry shit cry why no please no beg cry plead cry wail scream scream pain fuck.
The baby is gone. Fucking gone.
Well technically not gone - how's this little mindfuck: my fucking body doesn't realize that the fucking baby inside is fucking dead and HAS BEEN FOR A MONTH and won't turn it loose. I'm having a D &C today to riptearpullscrape get it out of me.
fuck. breathechoke.
My heart is broken for you and Drew.
ReplyDeleteI'm crying as I type.
All my love and prayers,
Cori
I don't even know what to say. I'm so sorry :(
ReplyDeleteI'm a new reader, came from CurlyNikki. I'm so sorry! I'll be keeping you and your husband in my thoughts & prayers.
ReplyDeleteDesiree,
ReplyDeleteI am a friend of Cori's and a old classmate's of Clint's. I just happen to click over on your blog and seen this...I am so sorry!!!! My thoughts are with you!
Nickie (Tribble) Fosburg
Been thinking about you and praying for you all day.
ReplyDeleteI'm a new reader from curlynikki's page and want to tell u I'm so sorry for your lost. I've been there a few years ago. Cry, scream do want u need to but just try again. Peace to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteI've been there too. Don't let people tell you, you should just get over it and start trying again. Take your time and deal and heal. My prayers are with you and your new hubbie.
ReplyDeleteSo, so sorry for your loss. You're in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your loss! Keeping you in my prayers
ReplyDeleteHey. I'm a friend of Kesha's and i found my way here from Curly Nikki's site. I'm praying for you guys Desiree.I'm sorry. Really sorry. I'll keep praying as often as I remember you. (and you're right, Kesha IS an angel.)
ReplyDeleteI'm really sorry to hear that you lost the baby...I'm without words as there is only so much one can say at a time like this. I pray you and Drew gain strength through one another. Hugs to you.
ReplyDeleterania
Oh Des... honey I am soooo sorry. My heart is absolutely aching for you and Drew. I can not pretend to imagine but sweetie I am here if and whenever you need me. I hope you know that. I love you sweetie!
ReplyDeleteI am a new reader...came over from CurlyNikki. My thoughts and prayers are with you and Drew.
ReplyDeleteI'm SOOOOOO sorry.
ReplyDeleteOh no. How...? Why? I am sorry, Desiree.
ReplyDeleteI too am here from CurlyNikki, Im so sorry for your loss....saying a little prayer for you and the hubby :)
ReplyDeleteOh, sweetie! I'm so sorry. There is nothing that can take your hurt away, but just know that we are all thinking about you and Drew. God has a reason for everthing. It's okay to mourn and be sad, just don't let it stop you from trying again. I'm so sorry....
ReplyDeleteI'm so so sorry. Just wishing you both well during this difficult time.
ReplyDeleteDesiree- Just wanted you to know that I'm thinking about you, and concerned. Wish I could be there. (((((HUGS))))) And I'm still praying for you. Love ya.
ReplyDeleteI've read a lot of heartbreaking experiences, but this has to be the most honest and raw interpretation. I have no words for this. Only that I'm sorry, and they really are worth the multiple tries.
ReplyDeleteI've just found your blog from Tam at GIGS, and after the first post I started at the begining devouring each post like a juicy novel, laughing, crying, celebrating each triumph and tragedy. I like all the others felt heart broken at this post, I've prayed along with you and for your family and know that God Is truly good and if He brought you this far He wouldn't leave you and something tells me the best is yet to come. Now back to reading.
ReplyDeleteI'm so so sorry. Just wishing you both well during this difficult time.
ReplyDeleteI am a new reader...came over from CurlyNikki. My thoughts and prayers are with you and Drew.
ReplyDeleteI've been there too. Don't let people tell you, you should just get over it and start trying again. Take your time and deal and heal. My prayers are with you and your new hubbie.
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