I thought a new house and a new dog at the same time would be an okay idea, sort of to get the upheaval over with in one fell swoop. What do I know.
Instead, I feel like I'm constantly two steps behind, never able to catch up, failing at everything. No time for the house, not enough time for the dog, and there was a boyfriend in there somewhere. I fall into bed at night, hovering between asleep and awake striving to hear the puppy's whimpering, wondering if she's just crying or if she needs to go out. She's just a baby, she doesn't have bladder control yet, it's not her fault. I need to do a better job, but I'm always two steps behind.
I'm so frustrated and sad; I feel that if I'm messing it up with a dog, I'm pretty sure I'll suck as a mother. That's probably why I haven't had kids. Everything I read says if you don't do it right while they're a puppy, they'll be horrible dogs and I'm terrified of that. I don't want a 100-lb. dog biting me or knocking me over because they don't know any better. I can't give up but I don't know if I have what it takes.
Please hurry...
Kids are waaay easier than dogs. Seriously.
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2. They sleep more.
3. It's socially acceptable (and expected) to take them everywhere with you.
4. They're easier to love, therefore you never think of them as a burden.
You will be fantastic mother Desiree! You just have a lot on your plate right now. New houses are overwhelming and exhausting, because you feel like there's nowhere to relax---work and projects are constantly in front of you! I'll be praying for you today, but cut yourself some slack. Remember, life is a marathon, not a sprint. ;)
Ok, then can I trade in the dog for a kid? ;-)
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